Week 29: Fifth High Holy Day: Recap

Fall Equinox:
For this ritual with Columbia Grove, on September 25th 2016, I choose to volunteer for the invocation to the Goddess Hestia of the hearth and to the Nine Muses for inspiration. 
If I am being truthful, I felt no connection to these deities and it was actually quite upsetting to me. Before this ritual, I tried really hard to find connection. I listened to ancient style Hellenic music. I made offerings to Hestia and to the Muses and tried to call out to them to help aid me. All of this received no discernable reply.

The ritual itself went fantastic for our guests and there was a lot of energy raised for Dionysus by dancing while masked. I preformed a guided meditation to meet Dionysus and although I really got into the meditation, enjoyed the words, and felt they flowed beautifully out of my lips, it just didn’t speak to me on a spiritual level. 

​During the offering portion I felt an overwhelming warning to remove my mask. For the first time in this ritual, I felt a connection, but not from the Hellenic gods and goddesses, it was from my patron the Morrigan. She did NOT want me to hide behind a mask to make offerings. Once removed, I felt it was completely the right decision to make. 
It was, in many ways, almost a disappointing ritual for me after the experience I had at Lughnasadh. But I still enjoyed it very much and I learned a lot about my own connections. I will not stop trying to respectfully honor the Hellenic deities but at this time I do not feel a deep connection to any of them.