Building my relationship to Tarot: A process

*retroactive post* 
I wrote this on May 17 2015
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I am in the process of exploring divination methods that work for me and trying to build a relationship to Tarot and my new deck. In this process tonight I have been asking my deck questions about itself to better understand the nature of its answers and it's become very clear that this deck is very blunt and truthful. (This is something I really appreciate as my oracle deck speaks more in riddles) 
Anyways, 
The question I asked is "At this point in our relationship, which card best describes your opinion of me?" 
The answer: The 4 of Swords.

The card that reminds us to SLOW DOWN and rest our injuries. That reminds us that being addicted to activity is not always healthy. 
Much like everyone around me lately, even my deck feels I need to take it easier and heal my foot, even be the dreadful word *boring* for a while for my own good. My deck already knows Im a stubborn and prideful perfectionist and it isn't afraid to call me out on it.