Meditation Reflection #2.

Today I used the Two Power Smithcraft Meditation from Sassafrass Grove.
Smithcraft Meditation http://sassafrasgrove.org/2015/01/26/brighid-along-day-four-smithcraft/

I am still recovering a broken foot and it is very chilly out this morning so I stayed indoors for this meditation. Cold makes my foot ache :( 

I had a hard time with this meditation to start with. Im very familiar with the Two Power meditation structure but the woman voice was so faint that I had a hard time hearing her despite the speakers on my laptop. I had tried to play the meditation audio and also background music with rain and thunder together to help with the lack of nature by doing the meditation indoors but I had to turn off the rain and thunder early on as I could not hear the meditation. Not a real deal breaker or anything but it made the beginning quite distracting. 

Once I turned off the second audio I could still barely hear her and I contemplated pausing and trying to find headphones but I did not want to interrupt the meditation or start over. I just took it as a challenge to connect and power through. In the future, I will remember to use headphones as I am sure they will help tremendously with canceling out background sounds. 

Things that stood out for me in this meditation: 
I had an image of those dual color oil and water toys most kids had or made as children when the waters of life and the fire of creativity meet and swirl around my center. It reminded me of how both elements join together and make something beautiful but do not lose their individual elements in the process.

I also thought it was interesting that while normally I get chills down my legs when the waters of life receded back to the earth this time I did not but instead I got a warming tingly-ness feeling in my upper body, shoulders and neck when the fires of creativity were drawn back upwards to the sky. 

For the first time in a long time, I smiled when expelling these elements, especially the fire. Normally I feel somewhat guilty for keeping so much but this time I felt like I was balanced and energized instead of desperate for the energy to get me through. The best analogy I have is that it felt very much so like I was lightly recharged instead of being brought to life. It was very nice.